[GrayClouds]

Originally Posted by Exit

Yeah, just kinda wish I could break these mental attachments of her to other things in my life, because I don't want to have to avoid them. Blah....

Ya it sucks. the fact is your simple not as far along as you liked to be, or maybe even think you are.

Away of breaking them is ignore them. Not easy but when you think of them don't dwell force yourself to move on to something else. Remind yourself your thinking of the person you wanted her to be not the person she turn out to be. More importantly, think about yourself and what your going to do for yourself.

Who is the working out going these days?

I myself have purchased some protean power stuff. It is not doing crap, it wasting money and taste like hell. So why do it? It uses up a half hour fixing the stuff and during that time I feel like I am treating myself and that makes me feel a bit better. And it forces me into a new routine that is mine and mine alone. And I can pretend I am getting HUGHHHHHHHHHH MANNNNNNNNN, HUGHHHHHHHHHHHHH. (while in fact everybody asking me if I am sick because I looking too skinny)

[GrayClouds]

Originally Posted by GrayClouds

(while in fact everybody asking me if I am sick because I looking too skinny)

and if they really irritate me I tell them I have colon cancer and walk off, that usually shuts them up.

[rickigal]

This is totally normal. It isn't fun because the good memories are what make us want to be back with them. I have also wanted to contact my ex many, many times over the past month of NC over little things that we shared together. I try to think of it as he did bring a lot of joy into my life that we were together. I am happy to have known him and I do wish him the best. I don't like being reminded of those times but that fact is that it will happen.

Ask yourself this, if you do contact her about these things will the conversation be the same as it was when you shared those moments? Of course it won't. It will be awkward, uncomfortable and maybe even hurt you again after you've taken this time to move on and heal.

[soheartbroken]

Ya. There is lots I don't do because it reminds me too much of the ex, or my "previous life" as I like to call it.

TV, radio, newspaper, music, certain shows and websites, kickboxing, certain board games...oh ya, and ALL our/my furniture is in storage indefinitely because I can't handle it. Moved back home with two duffle bags.

Hopefully one day I can get back into most of these things, little by little. The TV I don't miss so much, 'cause it made me lazy and I watched far too much.

[soheartbroken]

And ya, I want to tell her so badly about all the stuff the cat does too! We had her together for 5 years...