[pinkroses]

Really gotta vent people. This woman is a manipulative, controlling, guilt-inducing, gossiping ---you all fill in the blank, any bad word will do. I have been putting up with her disapproval and underminding since I first met my ex-husband, back in '89. Now that my ex-husband is working out of town, I have to deal with his parents more because of my son. This beech snapped at me at my son's ball game tonight. A couple of other moms turned around and looked. I was so embarrassed, and crushed. I am not a mean, confrontational or argumentative type. But I was a bit defensive this evening about why my son and I were late getting to the practice for the game. I knew she was going to open her big mouth and say something to make me look like a no good parent, like she usually does. I had to work later, my son was pokey, and there was a wreck on the way to the ball park. But she and her stupid, hen-pecked husband had to treat me like I was the worst scum of the earth that I wasn't there right at 5:30. I still made it on time for the game at 6:00. So sue me!

Sometimes I feel like moving to a deserted island, I am so tired of putting up with abusive behavior. I just got out of a verbally and emotionally abusive relationship, and since I've been back in my home town a couple of family members have gone off on me, and I've had to deal with the in-laws from hell. People say not to let it get to me, but when you're hurting and vulnerable and fragile because of all the disapproval, you can't help but have some things cut to the quick. I've been putting up with verbal and subtle emotional types of abuse since I was a child living at home with an alcoholic father. It's easy for someone whose never been there to say let it roll off, don't let it get to you. It does get to you. I wish I could just pass it off but I can't because it's ongoing. My poor little boy has to be in the middle of this and I hate that. He's only eight. He already hates his grandmother. Her own daughters moved far away from home she's so controlling. That ought to tell you something.

Anyway, thanks for listening.