[garagegal]

I have written quite a few times on my problem and yet i feel i need some peoples advice.

Basically my ex had a night stand with his ex and now shes having their baby.

I cant describe to you how im feeling. i found out in dec and im still struggling to cope with all these emotions.

he said it was a drunken mistake but one that he will have to live with for the rest of his life. We were together 2 yrs and split up ( not indefinately) in sept 02. He has got family but they dont give a **** about him, hes quite a mixed up bloke and never had a loving supportive family around him.

I should mention that he went out with his ex for 4 yrs before me and she lives on the same road as his mum.

when we got together he moved in with me and things were great, but he always had money problems and never had work, and in the end had to move out.

He moved into a hostel in his old area and his ex eventually got back into contact,

he spent more time in his old area as he couldnt always travel to see me.

in the end
we split on good terms and remained lovers and friends. I went on holiday in october and when i came back, realised he was acting funny towards me.

Basically i sussed out something was up and just before christmas he rang me at work and completely Destoyed my HEART.

He told me when we 1st broke up, he and his ex went for a drink and got chatting. etc. etc One thing led to another and they had sex. HOW COULD HE THE BASTARD.

But thats not the half of it, 3 months later and shes having his baby, she told him when there was no other option but to have it.

He knows it was a mistake and has told me he still loves me and is having the baby with the wrong woman, but i know i wont ever be able to handle this. Do i keep him in my life or wot.

We had talked of kids in detail, and i just cant handle how 3months after we broke up, his ex is having his baby,

im so hurt, please reply with your opinions and advice. were both 23. How can i just forget this and move on, all i can do is think of them together with a baby.

will i ever heal from this.
He was everything to me but clearly i wasnt for him.