[lucydunno]

I have been in love with a male friend of mine for nearly four years now. He fully understands how I feel and has never told me he does or does not feel the same way. We have never been more than friends and have never done more than kiss on the cheek or hug. We have been through alot together and have ended the friendship on several occasions but we always keep coming back to each other.

Each time we start getting too close and then we have to separate for some time. It is both of us not just one. About three weeks ago it started again where he became very distant from me, etc... the usual routine

Just recently I asked to kiss him good night for the first time ever and got no rejection. My intentions were to give him a simple kiss on the lips but he turned it into this long and passionate kiss that lasted about five minutes. Prior to the kiss I asked him two times if he would ever see me as more than a friend and he would not answer me. He said he loved me to death and that I was his best friend. I have asked him this before.... and begged him to tell me that he did not feel the same way so I could move on with my life. He said the same thing... I love you to death you are my best friend.

I do not know what to do.... can anyone help?