[MandiDoll]

I'm 18, and, for as long as I can remember, I have always ALWAYS had a boyfriend, whether he was long distance or right next door. I broke up with my last boyfriend about a month ago, and I have been scrambling around, it seems, to find a new one, even though I don't even want a boyfriend. I'm going to college in a month and I don't want to be tied down to anyone.
Anyway, I've been dating non-stop, a new guy every nite, exhausting my resources amongst my male friends and possibly screwing up lifetime friendships. I don't know why I feel a need to have a boyfriend all the time.
Now, my two best friends are both in relationships: one is dating the brother of the other, and the other is dating one of her brother's friends. And I used to spend a lot of my free time with them, but now they are always with their boyfriends and I'm the fifth wheel. It's a horrible feeling, so I'm about ready to grab whatever I can and just convince myself I feel more for him than I do.
I know it's stupid, but I think I have a serious serious relationship dependency problem, and I could use all the help I can get. My friends know me too well; they can't give me an unbiased opinion. Maybe someone here can do that for me.

Thanx

Amanda