[PAP]

After3 months of the breakup, she started texting me and inviting me for a coffee or to hang around. Well i took all this signs as a regret from her and wanting to get back together with me. She even txt me once while being drunk that she still loves me.
Yesterday she was in a club i went to celebrate the new year and most of the time we were together having fun, she even took me home as i was a bit drunk to drive.
Today i gave in and text her asking her why she is coming closer to me. If she wants something more or if she just wants to be friends with me again. She said that i am a very important person in her life and does not want to lose me from her life and she was feeling bad that we were not talking. And that if i want to cut every communicaton with her she will understand. WTF?

I told her that she is too important for me as well to just cut her out of my life as simple as that and that is very hard to see her only as a friend. I then asked her what she thinks of us getting back together . She said that she will not ever get back again with me. Well i said that i dont want to get back together because a relationship with her is like a rollercoaster. She is a CP
I wished her well and told her that now i know that i have done everything in my hand to try to fix things with her so i will not have any regrets that i let her go without a fight and that i will found someone that loves me for what i am. She txt me back that i am the sweetest person that she ever met and that she will always love me.

I cant understand her she was giving all the signs she even told me that she still loves me what did i did wrong here?

know i must move on with my life but why she was giving me all this signals that she wants to get back with me? This is cruel, maybe she wanted to try being friends with me and slowly build the foundations of a relationship and by being impatience and asking her directly if she will get back with me i ruined everyting?During the 3 months i have applied no contact she started txting me and coming around during December. i was doing so well and now i feel like i am in day one again.

She said to me that i am too important in her life and doens not want to lose me as a friend but i really cant see her as a friend. Do you think is egoistical from my part? I know she stills loves me because she told it to me one night.
I really cant understand her, maybe she wanted to check if i still have feelings for her because the last 3 months i managed to hide my feelings from her.
I know after some weeks she will try to communicate again with me and i really dont know what to do....

Thnxs and happy new year to everyone