[Zetter]

After months of self analysis, I think I'm having a hard time with my divorce due to my own co-dependency. That and the inability for my ex to help me end this circus. She moved out, moved on, and yet continues to keep me hanging on in subtle and not-so-subtle ways...asking me to give her more time to decide, asking to be friends and see where it goes, etc. Our last emailings were basically me telling her that this was going nowhere and I needed a divorce if she wasn't changing her mind. She agreed and was supposed to email me the paperwork to fill out (that is on her computer). I haven't heard from her in 2 1/2 weeks.

I am now dealing with trying to get over a person who really projected a lot of things onto me, and treated me like crap for a long while. Nothing I ever did was good enough, and nothing I did wrong was ever forgiven, no matter what I did to make up for it. Yet I have this feeling of failing her, of not protecting her, and not being there for her when she needed me. I know the facts, know I tried very hard, yet still feel guilty about where we ended up. I have sought counseling, and the question remains "why do I feel that I need to be with someone where my satisfaction results from the knife coming out?" Maybe I just need to find a healthy relationship to see how things could be great.

Any thoughts or suggestions would be welcome.