[Hopeless89]

God i absolutely hate it! my bf of 5 months and i get along great. he is amazing. he has done so much for our relationship including his friends getting mad at him for spending ALL his time with me, but he says im worth it. Anyways since he is so wonderful he has ALOT of friends, including girl friends (input the jealously now) i hate it. he says he wants to be with me and only me and no one else and if he did he wouldnt be with me, etc. he reassures my insecurities over and over about how much he wants to be with me and how none of these other girls measure up but i cant believe it. they threaten me. my bf has a page on myspace.com (worst website ever) and a few girls were leaving him these cute flirty messages and i saw he had written them back in the same way. so that totally put a damper on my trust and he admitted that it was unintentional and innocent and he didnt mean to hurt me and it would never happen again and it didnt. anyways so these 2 girls he was messaging with are his "friends" although he hasnt seen them since we started dating and swears he rarely talks to them on the phone and he only talks to them online once or twice a week. so i saw his buddy list and found her sn and put it on my buddy list and now i know when the one is on - the other one apparently has a bf she is OBSESSED with so im not worried about her - so i always know when the other is on and she's on right now and im talking to my bf and he told me he was talking to her and grrr i just want to kick her offline! i hate her and i dont even know her. i am so afriad she or anyone else is going to take him from me and i dont know why. every free waking moment he has he is with me. yet im still so worried and paranoid. why?!? i hate this.