[midlifecrazy]

Seemed like my original thread was turning into a blog and hadn't posted to it for a while, thought it was time to start a new one. First one had kind of gotten away from it's title anyway.

I'll not rehash everything. Those who have been following know the story. Those who don't can go back and catch up on my OP if they're interested.

Latest development is I finally had Mrs MLC take Dr Phil's relationship test. She came up on the high end of normal, one more point and she would have been in the emotional divorce range. She didn't click off the test screen so I was able to go back later and read her responses. I really question some of her answers and think she could easily have gotten a few more points.

There was a lot I expected and there were a few surprises. She said she is not satisfied with her sex life. That's interesting. Is it because she thinks I'm always after her, we're doing it too much or I've been doing something wrong all these years? Guess we'll talk about that.

Of course she wanted to know what I had scored. It was late and I didn't want to get into it all at that hour so without lying I did mislead her for the time being.

I guess by my past experience I'm doing pretty good so far this year in the sex department. I've already got my full years ration, 12 times in 6 months. Maybe that's why she's dissatisfied with her sex life. Any kind of variety is still non-existent of course.

She still manages to use her words to cut me like a knife at least every other day. I think she senses me pulling away. The last time we made love it was after a kind of bad day that way. Slut that I am, I finally gave in after much cajoling.

Though I'm still swinging back and forth because of all the upheaval I know will ensue if we break up, I find myself making little moves and mental preparations for such an event.

Thinking about counseling again. Now I'm starting to feel a little depressed about the whole situation. At least IC might help with that.