Why does it burn

clone56

why does it still burn for. I have posted on here a couple of times but damn it still hurts right in my heart like no tomorrow. We were together for 6 years and engaged. Started dating the day i turned 17 at my birthday party were we first met. You know the teenage love hits hard well when we broke up when i was 23 wow is all i could think about for months. What happened, what went wrong, why did this happen to me, is my life worth living anymore with out the person i loved more then anything. After 3 months of our breakup she took me back cause she said she missed me and thought i have changed for the better. She was talking about handling my stress from work cause i didnt handle it well. After 3 months of being back together she thought i was cheating on her cause i said another girl was hot. Well yes i know very dumb comment but did not think it was going to end up like this. We have had NC pretty much for 4 months.

Now the other night my brother had his 2nd child and when i was in the room visting them she called him cause they are still friends. I heard her voice for the for the first time in months and it hit me like a ton of bricks. I left the hospital and was alll tour up. She sounded so happy and chearful and i thought i was doing better also. That night the dreams came back of her and they dont go away. Is this weird or wrong. Why does it still burn and hurt. Maybe im just having a weak moment but Its almsot unbearable and i cant handle it anymore. thoughts i would love to hear.