[sweetpea01]

My bf and I got together about 3 yrs. ago. Very early in our relationship, he had slept with another woman. This was in the first 3 weeks we met. We hadn't had the "exclusive" talk, but I HAD asked him if he was sleeping with others for health reasons, and he said no. So, when I found out a month or 2 after that, I was pissed. He said he got too drunk one night, was at a party, we weren't exclusive, and it was a huge mistake. He said after it happened, he realized it was crappy - and vowed to commit to me from that moment on. Okay, I ate it right up.

LAST NITE, I discover that he slept with multiple women, and way past the 2-3 week mark...when we were full on dating. It hit me like a ton of bricks. I asked him WHY he did it, and he says they all happened AROUND the same time (within weeks of each other), and that he didn't tell me in order to protect me. He thought confessing one was the same as confessing 2 or 3 or 4 or 5 zillion.

Well, now that I know - he looks like a whole different person to me. I took him back once b/c I believe ppl can make ONE mistake, but I didnt know he was out looking for a$$ every weekend. I feel sick by it.

This was all 3 yrs ago, and I just found out. I broke it off last night and I feel so empty inside. I want more than anything for him to give me a big hug right now, but I can't even stand the thought of seeing him at the same time, or his hands anywhere near me.

The last thing I remember is him begging me to forgive him, and his tears broke my heart, but I made him leave. He said he hasn't done anything like that in years, but what should I believe now?

Was there any legitimacy in what he did? Did he do it to protect me really, or to save his own a$$? I'm SOOO confused right now. It's SO outta nowhere....

Hurting,
Sweetpea