[Tony T]

YOU WRITE: "Can I believe that she still cares for me, or am I fooling myself?"

No, she doesn't care for you a great deal but you are a convenient person for her to use for her agenda.

She has been hurt really bad in the past, probably by the father of her child, and she is scared of entering into a good relationship. Or she may have some problem(s) or character flaws that men find undesireable. That's why she enjoys distant, online relationships with the opportunity to fly off for sex and a good time for short periods and then fly back to the safety of her own distant home.

She was dishonest with you, lying by ommission, and no matter how wonderful things have been, she has told you she is not in love with you and her personal life is none of your business.

Now, many men would consider it nice to have someone to fly over to see them and have a week of great sex with. If that's OK with you, go for it. But if you're looking for a long term, wonderful, healthy, loving, honest, sincere, open relationship with this lady, you are barking up the WRONG tree.