[Final Heaven]

Ok I have no idea what I have to do or even what I am doing is right. I really need some advice ...

I met this girl 2 months ago through friends, because we were all into online gaming. Me and a friend met this girl at about the same time maybe he was like 1-2 weeks earlier before me. Well at first she didn't catch my attention at all because I was crushing on someone else, so I didn't really even bother or thought that I will eventually have feelings for her. Anyway when we met for the second time, I knew that she was already attached to my friend.

Well good for him... Then things started to change, somehow and someway after that me and her started talking alot, I don't even have any idea how it started. Sometimes when her bf is away she would ask me out to dinner and stuff, but she always tells her bf that she is going out with me. We were clicking in many ways and she basically told me lots of things that she will be leaving for the UK soon even about how her bf is acting and how she is feeling sad about it. Well in one instance she even told me she might be breaking up with him and ask me if she should and if it was the right thing to do. Well since I didn't have feelings for her back then, I told her maybe she needed to give her bf a chance to set things right, and she should listen to her heart and not others. Apparently her bf isn't really well liked among the group, for some reason. I am not very close to her bf we are something like fly-by friends nothing more, not best buddies or anything.

After the conversation regarding the break up with her bf, things started to change. We started to go out together more often and in some occasion she dosen't even tell her bf anymore that she was going out with me. I didn't mind the company because I just wanted to her to feel happy and have someone to talk too. I mean for once I actually feel the pinch of sadness seeing someone like her being unhappy. Then it came all of a sudden and I feel that somehow I have developed a fondness for her company. And at one point I felt so depressed because I didn't see her for like a week I just had to see her just so I could confirm what I am feeling for her is not infatuation so I asked her out for dinner. When I met her things got alot a better for me, but I was having a major decision to make to tell her what I feel about her or not to tell. Basically my mind was wandering away the whole time she was talking to me. Finally she spoke up and asked me what I was thinking about. At first I decided to keep this feelings to myself because I thought it would only complicate things for her. Then she told me if I didn't want to keep her thinking and wondering I should tell her and it would make her happy before she leaves for UK in 2 months time.

Well at first I thought it wasn't right. She was my friend's girlfriend god what am I even thinking. I was seriously depressed I don't know what to do, or why this is happening to me. I thought these type of things only happens in the movies. Well I ask a few of my best buddies for advice and majority of them replied if I wanted to get rid of the depression I should just spill it out to her and if she really meant that much to me or I would have to live with the regret of never giving it a shot at all. Well okay finally I told her and now she knows, but I did tell her that I would really appreciate it that regardless if she has feelings for me or not I would still like to keep the friendship relations. After that things just started moving differently. Apparently she tells me her bf started treating her alot better and that he was ideal for her. We started talking alot less now, she still calls on occasion and we still do hang out together sometimes, but it not the same as before. She will be leaving for the UK for a year in 2 weeks time and I seriously have no idea what to do. I mean should I even have hopes that her relations with me will blossom into something more then just friends or should I just let it go and eliminate all thought of anything beyond friendship ?

Just to let you people know the feeling I have for her was not built in 1 day, it's not love at first sight, not a crush, it's what I developed while spending time with her. And no we haven't kissed or engage in anything sexual maybe we flirt sometimes but thats about all.