[KnightInShiningArmor]

Okay....here is everything...

I have been with a girl since she was 16...she will be 21 in March. I am currently 21. We kind of grew up together. I was her first love and vice-versa. We have only had sex with eachother. Going into 3 and half yrs in our relationship things started to happen. I had just transferred from a community college back home where we live. So at this point I am at Ball State and she is at IU. We are 2 hrs away. Last spring semester we started to agrue a lot. I was going thrugh a whole new setting and I think we both took eachother for granted. So we decided we were going to take a break. So we did, but we still talked online and on the phone. Then I wanted to get back but she didn't and said she needed more time. Summer came around and she said she still loved me and could see a future with me. Well we hooked up about 5 times over the summer, and she said she still needed more time because we argued last semester and she was scared that we would once we were back at school again. Also, she kind of wanted to not be together for awhile because she will be studying abroad in France for a semester...starting this January (for 5 months)...and thought it would be hard. Towards the end of the summer she had started dating her friend from IU. He is from Chicago. Her best friends at IU are friends with his friends and they hang out and party together. She said she now likes him and they have been dating for 2 weeks, and that they hang out a lot. She said that she doesn't know if she is making the right choice or not, and says that she thinks about me all the time. She said she needs time to figure out things for herself. So we havent talked in 2 weeks...the most we ever have not talked for almost 4 years.....it's hard but I hope it's the best thing to do. ..we did meet up 2 weeks ago to say goodbye in person...we reminicesd and kissed and cried. It's hard but I hope it's the best thing to do. I know she has good morals and won't do anything major with this guy unless she loves him. She really is a good girl and I guess I should be grateful for the great times we had together, and also that shes not hooking up with random people but instead someone that she is starting to have feelings for. This is very hard for me. All I think of is how he gets to see her and I don't. I am asking how I should handle all this. What should I do. I want her back sooo much and right now I am not even interested in meeting other girls. I am all about this girl.
Also I have AIM messenger and we both have eachother on our list. We both leave it on all day and we put away messages as to what we are doing. Is it still ok for me to write an away message?...cause I know she looks at it.
I only put like at work or at class, or just out. Also I just need advice on handling this whole situation! PLLLLEEEEEAAAASSSSEEE HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!