Ok...so the soap opera continues....lol. if you read my post about the 3 month itch thing you know the background. i talked to my boyfriend the other day about the way i was feeling. i told him i ddnt think he was attracted to me. he told me he was blah blah blah. we still went to sleep without sex. but he made it up the next day...finally first time with him in 2 weeks. during our talk he kept saying stuff about his ex. they got together here then she had to move back to china so he flew out there married her and visited her 2 times in a year and half. so surprise surprise she met up with an ex of hers in china and cheated and divorced him. so hes all broken up about it. basically during our talk i told him i dont know where i fit in. i didnt tell him this but im falling in love with a guy who is still inlove with his exwife. he told me that she was "perfect" that they had sex 4 times a day ummm....lets see i heard from his friend that they had a great relationship. then my boyfriend told me that having sex with me made him feel "guilty". and he tells me everything i do wrong to him but nothing i do right with him. i dont cuddle up at night good enough, i dont call him throughout the day to say hi, i dont call him when im out with my friends, i get along too well with his friends, want sex too often...then i dont want sex enough. but yet all inall he is still falling for me.
he's really a great guy. the best guy ive dated in the two years ive been single and id hate to break up because of this but i feel like the third wheel here. hes inlove with someone an ocean away and that girls inlove with someone else. then theres me. who cant do much right because i think im being compared to his ex. the first time we slept together he cried after i left because he didnt feel right. im the first for him since her. she moved away about a year and a half ago i think so he hadnt gotten any in almost that whole time. none of this feels right anymore. but being with him feels so good to me. what do i do? im usually good at figuring this out...but im at a loss this time. and to be completely honest i dont think the exwife timeline matches up well with the first story he told me because i thought all that took place a while ago and it seems like they have been talking until he met me. he told me he just put the paperwork through to finalize it 2 days before he met me. and he stopped writing to her around that time too. but i didnt know any of this til the other day. so im the rebound girl. originally it sounds like they have been split up since nov. before i thought he said it was even longer then that...but then it was nov...without communication...then i find out its been since jan of 04 and now i find out it could be longer??? i just got there in april. what 4 months later. none of this is sitting well with me.
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