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Originally Posted by Die Hard

I think you can do better than being functional spookie. You gotta set your sights higher than that. Honestly, do you think Jack wants to get involved with a pothead? Would it be fair to him to start a relationship with him while you're smoking pot? Would it be fair to yourself?

It's really not that hard to stop(I promise)...the first three days are the worst and after that it starts getting better already. As far as being afraid, I can understand. It is scary. You have to start dealing with reality. A scary thing after having smoked pot to avoid it. It's not like pot is going anywhere. You can always start again...but why not give sobriety a chance? I can tell you from experience that sobriety can be a trip after being stoned for years Also, you're not the same person you were when you started smoking. Why not stop for awhile and see were you're at, emotionally speaking, etc..?

Fwiw, I was a chronic every day user. I have nothing against pot. It was my friend for a long time but sometimes you outgrow certain friends but you don't realize it until you spend some time away from each other

Wanting to be with Jack is one of the biggest reasons I want to quit. I don't necessarily think he'd have a problem with my use, but I don't want a relationship that's based on anything other than sobriety. A big reason I like Jack is that I feel chemistry with him even (especially) while I am completely sober... that hasn't happened to me with anyone in years.

I have actually just run out of my stash. Now I have to decide whether I want to quit, or buy more. I want to say I want to quit, but it's 11 PM on a Saturday and I just woke up... it's an easy time to say that.

The times I really need to smoke are times of stress - after work for example when I'm hating everything.

We'll see how I feel Monday afternoon.