[Space Ritual]

What I am trying to say to you is this (and once again I have been in a very similar position to yours so I am by no means trying to insult you, my intention is to attempt to help the scales fall from your eyes SO YOU CAN TRULY HEAL).

Given everything that I read, and as much as you may or may not like it, if your Ex wants you to move on I think you need to hear it from the horse's mouth in this situation

As I stated before ,I suggested keeping up NC, but at this point you are running yourself ragged with second guessing. I certainly did myself when I was in your position. In an effort for you to move forward I think you now have no choice but to reach out to her. Normally Id advise against it 1000 percent but once again, after reading through your entire threads I just think that you are so desperately wanting answers that its now the only way.

I base it on reading your entire body of work on LS in regards to this and by all the advice you got, which ultimately has not left you feeling any better realistically after all this time. And it's not your fault. When some of us feel that a person is THE ONE that we cant go on until the chapter is fully closed, regardless of the ton of advice we get.

Its been going on now for over 5 months with the same unanswered questions. So for your own sanity I think you should just send her an email. If she responds, fine. If she does not fine.

But the answers I take it that you want are very specific answers. so since this will be your one shot. ask SPECIFIC questions.

I think you are probably a real cool guy who got hurt real bad and it's left such a hole in your heart that it will almost impossible for you to move on for yourself unless you just ask her for specifics. Just keep in mind that the risk of doing this is not getting the answers you want, and leaving more questions. Or getting answers you will completely disagree with and may hurt you even deeper. But in your case I don't think there is any other way.

Best of Luck and let us know what happens.

[bluesky123]

Space Ritual I 100% do not take offense to what you say to me , infact I appreciate someone being blunt with me and telling it how it is. However like you said to me before 5 months of silence is enough of closure. She's gone, over the last week my curiosty sent me back by creeping her page. Today was the first day in a week I have not looked at her profile and I feel better. I just have ot fight the my curiosty. Infact last month I did not once look at her profile, this week however I gave into my curiosty and punished myself. Thank so much for listening to me. I really appreciate it.

BS123