[DidiLU]

Thank you everyone.

I think the advice to read other persons stories ( on the receiving end ) is a good idea. I agree this is my life, but also agree many people are effected with what happens.

The reasons why I have decided to do this-the history of him and I are not required for this initial question.

I am sorry to those who have been sidetracked and left behind. I am someone who will sidetracked and change someone else's life, and give a great deal of pain. Please understand as someone giving this to another, its not that I don't care about him, its that we aren't were we hoped we'd be.

I have tried and failed and tried and failed many times. This just isn't working anymore.

And while I know the pain I will cause, I have to understand the pain I have been going through as well. Both sides are hurt.

Thanks again.