I understand exactly what you're saying Tojaz! You did share your letter that you wrote to your ex with me...it was beautiful and so touching! I had definitely planned on holding off on sending him the letter, I can't take anymore pain at this point.
I truly envy all of you out there who are going through a separation or divorce without children involved! I would give anything to just be able to move on and not have to see my stbx. I have to see him 4 days a week bc of our children! I would be so much further in my healing process if we didn't have children together...for goodness sakes, it's been 9 months already and I'm still in the denial stage most days.
On a positive note, my son is FINALLY getting the hang of potty training...4 days now, no diapers!!!!! HOORAH!!!

And this is all thanks to me...my stbx has nothing to do with training our son!!