[jj33]

Honey think about it.

You cant help who you fall in love with, but you can be responsible for taking care of your heart.

When someone doesnt treat you with love and dignity, the fact that you love them is not necessarily a good enough reason to let them keep toying with your heart.

This isnt about whether he is married or divorced.

This is about whether you are ready to face the reality of this man's actions and to take care of yourself.

Saying you cant help who you fall in love with and letting him come and take advantage of the fact that you love him is a cop out.

[learnfrommymistakes]

JJ33
I have beaten this horse to death...lol..sick of hearing my own words really. I have some decisions to make, and think I know what I need, want and don't want anymore. Not sure I think it's a "cop out" but obviously there is something I am holding onto or need to finish, in my own mind/actions. I cant and won't live like this anymore. I will see him if he still comes, say my piece, get out what I need to get out, cry, mourn, laugh, sing, wail, who knows...but this is not anything I want to hold onto after this impending visit.

It may have taken years, and years to come to this point, but I am ready to say my words, speak what I need to get out, face to face, and then wish him well and a good life. I will always care for him as a friend and person, I dont have it in me to hate. I never did, and its wasted energy. I just need to see him in person and handle my business, and send his ass home on a one way flight, and get over this chapter in my life.

I DO have more respect than I did, and that feels good. He was a weakness which I can and will turn in to a strength...for sure.

Peace out,
lfmm