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Before the split
- all was great on all levels - she seemed tired - I put that down to the new full time role she has taken on but sshe was enjoying it (a little too much it now transpires)
We were physically together the intensity was still there there was no arguing and all seemed good.
She was having night sweats and mood swings for the last few months - but typical of her, wouldnt seek professional help for the lack of sleeping.


Thanks for the advice things seems to have moved on - we had another chat this afternoon and it transpires she is exhausted and confused (I knew this already) She is very lonley as non of our friends in this small town will speak to her now and she feels VERY guilty. But yes she has outgrown me - in that she wants to enjoy HER time not be wife or mom.
Our 17 year old daughter seems to understand her and wants to be with mom which is fine - its our 12 year old that concerns me - he hasnt had professional help and seems introverted, I am afraid he is not dealing with his emotions.
Friends that know her well, tell me that she is not quite herself at the moment and is tearing herself apart - quite worrying if not for her, but for the kids who do NEED a stable mom
I think she is now torn between Kids and freedom (I am out of the picture altogether) despite her hug today and wierd statements like "she wont ever find anyone as good as me".
I think the cake eater hasnt been able to have this go quite the way she wanted (she still isnt telling her family that we have even split)
No shes made her bed she must lye in it - and move on I must do.
If she looks in her heart shes bored with her domestic life and the best thing all round I believe would be for her to move on and leave me to look after our 12 year old alone - he needs at least 1 STABLE parent.
Sad though it is, the woman I live with is a complete stranger to me now, an emotional wreck who can get a nights comfort in the arms of a stranger (her words not mine)