[joemax]

I know I'm in charge of my thoughts, but like, when I'm sad, II can't just decide to be happy instead. Maybe you can, maybe I'm not at that stage of emotional content yet, I'm working on it though, and what you say is very interesting. I wish I was this much of control of myself.



Is it your kind of belief that, in grown-up relationships, the female partner's role is basically to take care of the male partner's sexual and emotional needs and desires? What is the guy's obligation to the woman, as far as emotional, social and sexual? Who's in charge of the kids' mental, emotional and social development?

Well, no. I believe the woman in the relationship has to not only care for her man's emotional and sexual needs, but to also cook, clean, and make sure he's completely happy with her. How else would a relationship work?



...that was a failed attempt at humor. Not at all Ronni. I always knew that both people in a relationship have to work at making it work. I don't know, maybe somewhere along the way I forgot that. Maybe I got too comfortable. I wasn't like this in my teenage years. I didn't want many women. I wanted one woman and one woman only, I don't know what changed. I know it's normal, cause it is normal for our wants and needs to change at different stages of our lives. But still.

You know what? Now that I think of it, I want other girls a bit less now. I don't know. Maybe I am maturing. It's just that the lifestyle of a 'playboy' is very appealing to me. The partying, the not caring, the being happy, the girls, the herpes . I know I'm stupid though, which is why it's almost like an internal struggle with myself.

I'm still thinking about whether I should get back together with her or not. She said she does wana give it a try again, but would understand if I chose not to. I'm talking to friends, some are saying go for it, some are saying not to. But at the end of the day, I'm gona make the choise that's gona make me happy. I know that. I just hope I make the right choice. I could always give it another try, and if it doesnt work out, I could always go back to the single lifestyle, no? I mean, I still have time. 21 years old is not that old.