Erm.....I guess, never really looking at anyone else, seeing a future with him, missing him 5 minutes after we were apart, feeling the most peace and calm in his arms and the most distress and pain when we were apart.
Its such a hard thing to explain, I don't actually think you can explain it, but he made me want marriage and kids when I was completely anti-marriage and kids beforehand.
The first time we held our child together after she came off the ventilator. He and I are no longer husband and wife, but we will always love each other. The bond of family that we forged on that day will last a lifetime between us.
__________________ ...they think everything is smiles and sweetness and flowers, when there is something bitter to taste. And to pretend there isn't is foolish. -- edie sedgwick
It's really difficult to do justice to this question.
I realized I was infatuated when I couldn't stop grinning when he called, or when I would sit around daydreaming about our sex life when I was supposed to be working. Then we started getting sappy and I would think, "This is so not me," but I still liked it...and he said the same. I had trust issues and he made it safe for me to talk about them without pressuring me for more, and I just started to notice how my defenses were softening around him, how he consistently gave me hard evidence that he was special, that he thought I was special. And over time we just kind of grew into this commitment where I found myself waking up in the mornings and realizing I was where I wanted to be for the rest of my life.
It's really difficult to do justice to this question.
I realized I was infatuated when I couldn't stop grinning when he called, or when I would sit around daydreaming about our sex life when I was supposed to be working. Then we started getting sappy and I would think, "This is so not me," but I still liked it...and he said the same. I had trust issues and he made it safe for me to talk about them without pressuring me for more, and I just started to notice how my defenses were softening around him, how he consistently gave me hard evidence that he was special, that he thought I was special. And over time we just kind of grew into this commitment where I found myself waking up in the mornings and realizing I was where I wanted to be for the rest of my life.
Oh wow...
This is what I want.
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hard to believe you can't get what you dream
but if you try sometimes you might find
you get what you steal
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