[almostthere]

well...here we go again. i just posted a few days ago about what a woderful guy i met. and he is. almost perfect...closer then ive come it in the past 2 years anyway. but once again im at just under 3 months and im ready to go. at first it was great. the first few times i went over there we stayed up talking, yes just talking, til 5 or 6am. and i know that cant go on forever but lately when i get there he's so tired that we dont go anywhere at all and he falls asleep at 8 or 9. when i get there at 7:30 - 8pm. and forget any intimacy. hes always sleeping. so...now that i have allowed my feelings to turn from liking to caring (not quite love) i have a decision between the heart and the mind to make. the best way top put this is imagine your dream guy or girl and then add too sleepy and no sex to it. but he is so respectful and loving and considerate all the time. he wants to see me 5 out of 7 nights. but hes sleeping....ahhhh....lol. i go there and i cannot fall asleep at 8 or 9 pm...so i sit up watching tv til 12 or 1am. plus im aggraviated because theres no intimacy whether sexual or mental. i hate to leave him i really do but i think if there is this much lacking its time to move on. i dont know. i keep hearing myself say ill give him til next weekend. every weekend. for about a month now. i know what im losing...but thats only in the future if we'd be able to spend more time together. or i should say more daylight time together. i find myslef wanting to go home at night after he falls asleep or not wanting to cuddle up to him after hes sleeping because im frustrated. i want to talk to him about it...but as you probably guessed already...he's sleeping. i knew he had to have a quirk. just like they all do...but come on...this one is impossible to deal with. i really hate to throw myself into the dating world again...just to meet some more people i have a ton in common with but have some major flaw i cant deal with. im not looking for profection and God knows...im so not perfect. im just looking for someone who more awake. like he used to be. its been atleast 3 or 4 weekends if not longer that we havent been out anywhere. we used to go out on fridays and dance and drink then go home and share some time together. normally id take all of this as he lost interest but he acts and says differently. oh well...life goes on right?! cant tell you the last time anyone has kept my interest longer then 3 months anyway. and i know youre probably thinking...well then it must be me...but all my decisions on breaking up with someone are warrented. id never leave a good match. but i clash with a lot of people because i like to go out once a week and have some fun. with them. but lately i go out drinking with my mom or friends and end up dancing all night with someone else. i dont have any specific question here...just ahd to vent. this is driving me crazy. im thinking about going out with my mom tonight instead of him...because i know ill have more fun that way. i want to talk to him about all this without breaking up with him but i guess i dont know where to start. i mean there is the sex issue and the sleep issue and those two together might insult him. and i dont want him to think any of that. so maybe some suggestions there. and is it wrong to ask him for some time away...so i can sort through all this? i just read a post on here about someones bf asking for some time...and everyone said thats a lame breakup line...but sometimes its that you really do need sometime. i mean i have a lot to lose here and it worries me that i might make another mistake.