[ilovececi]

Hey,
I'm young. Not too young, but young, and that's all I'll say. I don't want that to greatly affect the outcome of advice I recieve, but I realize that being young is a factor in the situation. I realize that there are plenty of fish in the sea. I know I should just get over my loved one, but I'm on this site for NEW advice. I already know that is more than likely the best thing to do (more than likely), Of course, I am a dreamer, and I dream of returning to her. My situation is as follows. I fell in love with a girl, duh, Ceci is my nickname for her, anyways, We were living in D.C., but I moved. I moved to TN. We had been together for about a year. I know that's not very long, but still, I felt great with her! I wanted to be a better person around her, I was! I helped her. She helped me. It was great!!! I was very clingy though, and I'm not sure if she liked that, because she would usually pull away when I tried to kiss her. We were a perfect match. We were greatly compatable.
Well, she asked me for time alone. I gave it to her, but ended up calling her. I was scared, because, she wasn't talking to any of her friends either! She was depressed (way before she met me) and I was scared she might hurt herself, and I was the only one who could really get through to her. Well, She decided that she wanted to break up. We were still going to be friends. She had no reason for me except, that she didn't love me. She didn't feel the same way. So, I let her go. About three fourths of a month later, she has a new boyfriend. All of this is utterly shocking seeing as how close we were. I've never been able to talk to anyone like I could her. I could tell her my deepest, darkest secrets! Things not even my best friend would understand! And I've known him since I was two!!!! So, I'm a little amazed right now. I can't believe what's happening.
I called her a while ago and I was a complete jerk to her, but I called her back and appologized. I don't feel like writing all night, but what I want the readers of this article to understand is, I know for a fact that she did love me, that we were perfectly compatable, we were good for eachother, and we helped eachother out, made eachother laugh, had tons of fun. She is my best friend, and now I can't talk to her. I don't think she knows what she wants and I feel like my only friend just died on me. I'm trying to get over her, but I miss her. I don't want to hear advice on "GET THE F*CK OVER IT!" I'm sick of that. I already know that. "Then DO IT!" right? I'm trying, anyway, If I see a single post on that subject I will ignore it. I didn't ask for advice on getting over her. I can get that from anyone. I want to know what the hell is going on here, what should I do, and how can I get her back, if that's even possible! Whether that's bad for me or not!
Thank you so much,
Ilovececi