[Angel1111]

It's very sad that you were abused as a child but do you realize that by continuing to focus on it in your adulthood that you're prolonging the abuse, and that it's still controlling and ruining your life? It seems that so much of your time is taken up by focusing on this issue of abuse. Why not just say, "Yes, I was abused. Yes, it hurt me. And now it's time to move on." The end. Drop this whole issue, forgive them for what they did in the sense that you let it go, then move far, far away from these people if that's what it takes, and get your life back. By not forgiving the people or person who abused you, by not letting it go, you're only hurting yourself, not them.

As someone once said, "Refusing to forgive someone is like swalllowing poison and expecting the other person to die." Read it again because that's what you're doing. All you're doing is poisoning your own life. Walk away from this crap and find some happiness.