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Hi all;

It has been just over a year since the end of the relationship. I fell hard for someone who is commitmentphobic. Like in the book by Steven Carter, he did and said everything to woo me and I went for it. A few months into the relationship, I leased a new apartment so we can start sharing our lives together. A month and a half later, he basically got up and left. With no real explanation other then that he need some time and space. I agreed to show my emotional support and later found out that while gone, he reconciled with his ex. I was devastated. I couldn't understand how someone who would repeatedly say that they are in love with you, would run the other way.

Anyway, once I found out about the deception, I broke up with him. He turned out to be someone who has repeatedly disrespected and deceived women he has been involved with. I was just another statistic. Looking at his past history, I got off lucky. He is now back with his ex and their two children, but is in the cheating mode again.

My road to healing has been bumpy to say the least. Just this week, I have hit the anger phase with a vengeance. My patience and temper is much shorter, and whenever I am reminded of my ex, my blood just boils. There are times when the anger gets soo intense that I have the urge to punch, kick, scream...you name it. I just restarted my gym visits, hoping that will help release some of the tension. I am angry at the fact that I was taken in by someone who had no real intention of living up to their words. He led me on and then bailed. I didn't deserve that. Also, I am angry at the fact that it seems like what we shared, didn't mean a damn thing to him. He was able to move on. I could just claw his eyes.

There are more things I can say here, but then I would start sounding like a raving lunatic. I would like some input from people who have gone through the same thing. Also, how long they were in that phase, and what helped them get through it. Thanks.