[trojans10]

Hey, hopefull this is the right place to put this.

Let me give you guys the lowdown on my situation...

Im 19 yrs. old and am a frosh. at my University. I am very shy and have a hard time talking to women in general.(socail anxiety) In highschool i didnt have one girlfriend. I played ftball, bball and baseball in highschool, and was considered the popular kid, with alot of friends but i was just very insecure and shy. Never went to parties, i just ung out with my best friend who is going through the same thing as me. Before i went off to college (out of state), i went to a stripclub with my friends, and ended up going the next day as well. I got a lapdance from a girl i thought was hot,and got another the next day aswell. -$160 now. (yes expesive). but after the 2nd dance she talked to me and told me why im here spending money, that im a goodloocking guy..so i told her that im shy and have a hardtime talking to girls. So before i leave she comes over and gives me her phone # and asks for mine and says she wants to get dinner and help me out with this...so this is where i became addicted.

A week later i went off to school. I would come back every 3-4weeks, and visit the club, fri-sat night..spending close to $200 a night on this girl. Shes a nice girl, whos down to earth. She would ask me when we were gonna hang out, but i was always back for only a day, before i had to go back, so we couldnt. Shes also offered to assist me in loosing my virginity.

Now during winterbreak, i went to the club 3x a week. Spending $200 a night again. I have even got into doing illegal things to make money just for the stripclub, i have $2000 saved up to spend at the strip club.

At the beginng of break, a new girl came up to me and gave me her number and said to call her. So i txted her for a little bit. Went back to the club and asked me when we were going to hang out. (havent spend any money on tis girl). I tell her to call me caz i wont call her...

Basically I have spent 3-4000 dollars in the last 4-5 months on strippers. I am seriously obssesed with this one girl, and need to get over it. The reason i believe i go to these clubs is becasue i have never been with a girl before and this is just a safe place to go for me. Im panning on telling this girl that im done getting dances from her, and that i will only talk to her from now on,and maybe give her alittle money caz ill feel bad.

I need help getting over this, its taking over my life. I have been depressed, with no motivation to do anything becasue i just constantly think about this girl. I cant sleep at night, and sleep all day. skipping classes and workouts everyday. The only time i feel good is when im talking to her.

I have been going to therapy for my social anxiety and my insecurites, but it hasnt gotten anwhere becasue im so depressed.I have a doctors appt. tomoorow for my depression and sleep problems. So will see what he says. But this stripclub stuff needs to come to a halt, or slowdown atleast. Im going to the club this thur, fri, sat. and im off to school again.

Help me out guys, any suggestions/tips will be apreciated. Im all ears. Thanks!

(sorry for the length, will make cliffs if needed)