I'm beginning to hate my life..and her.

stevewharnell

I just can't stand this anymore. The days she goes into work kill me. All men around her. What kills me is that I get flack for the female friends I make. I feel like it sorta wouldn't be fair if I only had male friends---i mean, what the hell, she sees dozens of guys everyday.

I can't stand hearing about her work, calling her while she's there, i hate the people there--evil the female ones.

My chest just collapses a little bit more and more everyday. I hate the idea of her having a good time with anybody other than myself.

Whenever I talk to a girl besides her, I feel like I'm doing something dangerous. I'm very afraid of her finding out, her going crazy on me.

But I wonder, when she talks to other dudes if she even feels like that. Which isn't fair to me.

I know she feels the same way when the shoe's on the other foot...but sometimes she just doesn't think ahead as to what I wouldn't like her doing.

As for me, I'm ALWAYS thinking about it. And I'm scared shatless if she ever found out about a girl lending a stapler to me. So I keep my distance from females...just for her.


Basically though, I'm sick of feeling horrible inside whenever she gets a guy acquaintence. Its ruining our relationship--I become such a prick to her whenever I feel worried inside.

We've gotten into petty arguments everyday this week.

Where's my life headed?