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Alright. Hm, I suppose let's start with the basics...I've been dating this guy, Michale, for a few months now. And well, even though he is only 17 (as well as I am) he has a 7 month old daughter. Now I've never been in a relationship involving a child before, so I don't know what I'm supposed to do. I care so much for his daughter, Kittie, but I don't want to take the place of her mother. It's so hard to deal with Michale having a daughter though because at times I feel upset. Well, 3 years ago I lost my daughter Mercedes due to a miscarriage. Yes, I was young...real young. But I was nearing the 2nd trimester when I lost her. So being with Michale and Kittie sometimes makes me feel like I'm trying to forget Mercy or something of the sort. It's as if I feel guilty for caring for Kittie, sort of like I'm replacing Mercy. But it's not like that at all...not even close. Agh. I just don't know what I'm supposed to do. I care for Michale and his daughter very much, but sometimes it just tears me up inside. Sometimes I even have to take time to myself and just think and reflect on many things. Plus, the fact that his ex is always going to be in the picture doesn't help at all. Now, his ex has just been recently married, so I know he won't go back to her. But her being around and knowing that she'll be there for the rest of his life....the rest of our lives..It just hurts. Hm. I suppose I'm just wondering what I should do, or some ways I can help supress all these terrible feelings. Any help would be greatly appreciated....