[klind1970]

My wife and I have been married for almost 12 years this coming January. We married young, you know the story. Well anyways we have two beautiful children that we both love. Over the years we have both closed ourselves off from romance and communication. We both wanted love and companionship, but did not know how to talk to each other to get it. This finally came to a head about a month ago when she started talking to this guy in her church youth group. She says that he showed her how exciting life can be and that she was due for a change in hers. A few weeks later she told me she wanted a divorce and she wasn't in love with me and hasn't been for quite a while. The funny thing about this is that I thought the same thing for such a long time because of the lack of love and companionship from her.

Needless to say, this revelation broke a wall down somewhere in my brain and I have fallen to pieces. I just couldn't believe this was happening to me and my family. I have tried to provide for my family the best that I could. The past few years however have put me in a state of depression that I seem to be only know starting to come out of. We are both a mess!!!! She is seeing two different counselors and I am starting to see one in the next week.

The one good thing about this mess is that she wants to try to work things out. I don't know if that is what she really wants though. We have been getting along much better in the last week, resulting in her not asking me to move out. I have been praying a whole lot, that this will get better daily.

I think my real worry is that I have found these emotions and feelings now and it might be to late!!! It is tearing me apart when I try to look into her eyes and I see nothing there in response. I just want to reach out and hug her and tell her that I love her tremendously, but I am afraid that she will reject it. There are many more circumstances envolved here too. My wife suffers from severe anxiety and depression. She wants me to take things slow, but I am having a hard time doing that. I just feel like I love her so much and want to show her my affection. I realize that I have to make up for many years of neglect, but I am willing to do whatever it takes. I could really use some advice, if anyone has gone through something similar to this. Any help will be appreciated...........