11th January 2017, 2:36 PM
Join Date: Jan 2017
Ten Years to Nothing
I apologize in advance for the lengthy back story, but need opinions.
I met a guy ten years ago at a music festival, he said he adored me from the moment he saw me... drove to my state two weeks later to see me at another festival. I was not that into him at the time, and we never "hooked up".
Every year he would text/call on birthdays and holidays, send random cute texts, but we never pursued each other or met back up for ten years. We obviously both had relationships in between, him being in one for seven years! He never really discussed in detail what happened, just that she cheated on him near the end, he forgave her, then did it again. He did divulge info that it ended badly, and he was beaten up by cops and thrown in jail because of a false accusation he was threatening them with a gun. Money and lawyers later they were DONEZO! He was tight lipped about details and got weird when I asked, even after two years of being broke up with her!
I reached out to him in August, and us both being single began talking a lot!! We live on opposite sides of the country, so we would FaceTime all the time too. He confessed he fell in love at first site with me, and has thought about me and had feelings for me for years. I soaked it all up, we even talked about marriage, children, houses.... literally we FaceTimed every morning night and texted throughout day for like three months. He told me he loved me profusely twenty times everyday.
I finally said screw it and flew out to see him for two nights, which were amazing (wink wink) and sealed the deal.
Our relationship continued like this for another month or so when I left, but I was much more needy after seeing him, and would question on when we will see each other next. He was planning on spending Christmas with my family and I. We had a Mexico trip paid on my behalf planned for January!
Long story short: from looking at his Facebook page I knew what his ex looked like and her first name, so I searched for her on Instagram one night that we didn't have our typical FaceTime date, and I was drinking wine. Yes I cyberstalked him and his ex, but didn't think it was that big of a deal.
Well I think the liquid courage from the wine took over me so I decided messaging her something to the lines of: "heard you dated this hippie guy, have any details about him"... something stupid. I realized it was stupid and immediately unfollowed/blocked her and felt embarrassed. It wasn't my finest moment.
Well apparently SHE reached out to him and I don't know what was said on that end. The last thing I heard from him via text after this was "I love you sweetheart, I hope you know that".
A few days went by and I had NO IDEA she reached out to him, but he wouldn't respond to any of my texts/calls.
He finally responded with ....I contacted someone I shouldn't have, I am a psycho stalker, it's done, F you, F off, I disrespected him, and I brought the SH$7 he is running away from back in his life. I was dumbfounded and heartbroken that someone that discussed forever and always type of love couldn't forgive my little social media mistake.
It has been two weeks of full on NO CONTACT on either of our ends. He does have a temper, but I'm hoping the dust will settle, and if he actually meant anything he told me everyday for four months he will forgive me and reach out.
Do any of you agree he has to be thinking of me? Especially over the holiday we were supposed to spend together, and our upcoming trip? Do you think he will come around? Did he just talk a good game, and claim he's loved me for ten years just to get in my pants? (Which he did address that was not the case at all)
How bad did I mess up? Any advice from an outsider would be greatly appreciated!
I am left with nothing but a broken heart and big question mark!