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"friend" - what is going on?


jrimbaud

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Hi all

This is my first post on this website.

I'm male and 20 years old.

 

Well my whole situation started when I became part of a course at a nearby college. I had just moved to the country and was eager to meet new people and quickly made a lot of new acquaintances on the course, regularly attending a lot of the social gatherings. There was of course a stunning girl who caught my eye - but I'm horrible with talking to girls I fancy and usually would get very nervous or shy (like the first time she said "hello" to me) I had always assumed she was close to my own age, as she did look it, but I would later find out she was 26

 

We had a few conversations over the first few months of the course - she used to have aspirations to act (like I still do) but had since got on the other side of the business, we had the same taste in films, food and (most) literature. The conversing was natural, with that awkward tinge that accompanies most new acquaintances. Then one night at a course outing a mutual friend let slip to me that she quite "liked" me - I was gobsmacked that she would even think of me like that. I then found she actually walked the same route I did to get home after the course (Somehow I had always missed her) I took this time to get to know her a bit better and we exchanged numbers and after a few weeks after I eventually plucked up the courage to ask her out. We grabbed drinks, saw a new film by a director we both enjoyed and had a nice walk around the city, it was brilliant. She said she had a great time and would like to do it again soon - I resisted the temptation to kiss her that night, as I never usually work that fast.

 

A week and a half later I asked her to a casual drink as we finished up for the day. The air was very different this time, something more "charged." The conversation was a bit more stifled than usual, but still flowed; she had the idea to go back to her place and watch a few films - which I thought nothing of at the time. We cooked dinner together and drunk a stupid amount of alcohol - eventually I kissed her, we "made out" and kept on drinking and watching film after film. When it got to around 3am she invited me "upstairs" - now I've got about the same experience as most my age when it comes to sex - I had had four partners prior, so this situation intimidated me a little but I knew I wanted it to happen

Of course the one thing I overlooked was the copious amount I had drunk that night, so when it came time to...I couldn't...well I'm sure you get the picture. This had never happened before and in my state I panicked and apologised...over and over again. We ended up having a semi heated discussion about the situation (she too was fairly inebriated) in which a bunch of stupid things were said by me (ranging from I really like you to I usually don't jump into this so soon - which apparently implied a bunch of things) with her saying that "this" would be the only time and we should go back to being friends. We eventually slept and then actually had sex, I was aware that it would be the only time and I left early after some awkward conversation.

 

I never thought she would still want to talk to me again, let alone actually be my friend after that occasion. But after a few weeks we started talking again, I came to realise that I would rather have her in my life than not at all. Over the next several months we developed a great friendship, regularly catching up for walks, gigs, drinks, films - I even stayed over a few times (on the couch.)

I used this time to develop myself artistically and socially in the community and even went on a few dates - none ever really working out.

I'll admit there were still some feelings there on my half, but I kept telling myself we are better off as friends.

 

This all leads to last night - she invited me over, it was a general film night, we cooked, talked and drank only a little (3 at the most)

Something was different about her though. I could not quite put my finger on it - then she kissed me and everything came flooding back. We were tired and ended up falling asleep in each other’s arms. Once I realised, I put her in bed and took up my usual spot on the couch. We didn’t speak of it in the morning; we ended up in her bed watching a few more films. I kissed her later - something felt strange in her demeanour when I did, but she kissed me back none the less.We avoided actually talking about it (and I know most will tell me to do so.) When it came to saying goodbye, I’m not quite sure what happened – it was one of those awkward moments where you both go in for what is either a hug or a kiss or a peck on the cheek, but neither (or one) of the two know which it is. It was a strange hybrid in the end

 

I’m incredibly confused about the situation now and I don’t know how or what she is feeling.

I would love an opinion or two. A fresh prospectus is always helpful.

Thank you for your time.

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