Newly Divorced and Baffled

[ParisSun]

I'm finding myself back in the dating scene after 14 years married, and I don't have a clue. Met a man on a 6 day cruise, we had great chemistry,etc. He was very much a gentleman and never pushed for anything. Invited me to a great dinner, I found the wine going to my head very quickly, and revealed some things about myself. Nothing too too shocking, except to a very critical person/complete prude. But he also revealed personal things about himself and his past. He had been divorced 10 years before (because he felt like he was doing all the work in the relationship). He had now been single since then.

 

At the end a a very fun evening dancing, he escorted me to my cabin, and I had way too much to drink, which I normally don't do. He was about to leave when I began kissing him. It was great, and he said my ex husband was a fool. He then left me saying he should leave now because he didn't want "it" to happen this way (me completely out of it). I thanked him for doing that, the next day.

 

The next and final night we went out again and had a great time, but this time he escorted me back, began kisssing me, and then obviously was pushing for something more. However, despite my hints about our having dinner after the cruise, and my getting his email address, he did not ask for my number. When I stopped anything (the making out) from proceeding further, and said it was too soon for sex, he said "sex?, I thought we could just make out in your cabin for a while"---(yea right). I said, it was apparent to me you wanted sex, but it's too fast for me. Let's have dinner after the cruise. His response "email me". Then he left and that was it.

 

One thing I don't get is he said a few times in the beginning that I behaved as though I was afraid of him or wanted to get away from him. I said it's just the opposite and I'm just shy. Why would he pursue me if he thought I didn't like him? He also said he tends to let the woman decide how close we get.

 

It's all very confusing. I really liked this guy and we had a strong connection. I come from a background that is different from his (wealthier) and might intimidate him. But, especially at this stage of my life, I care about a person as an individual, not his criteria or his resume--although he has a good job, he's a professional.

 

I also said, I don't know why, that now I was divorced I wanted to feel free, and that it was "raining men". I was kidding around I guess.

 

I'm considered very attractive and get a lot of looks from men, but I'm not 20 anymore (early 40's). But he's got to be in his mid-50's. He's not technically hot looking, but I find him really cute. However, alot of older men seem to want 20 year olds. I get more interest from young guys very often.

 

Could it be any of these things, or else the fact that I drank so much that one night?

 

I told him what hotel I was staying at, if he remembers. But I don't think I'll email him. Isn't it up to him to show some interest in contacting me?

 

I just felt so let down that it was so nice between us, but he seemed to have changed his mind or something.

 

What should I think?