Stasia31 Posted April 25, 2007 Share Posted April 25, 2007 Hi all, My boyfriend and I have been together for 3 1/2 years. We have had a great time, minimal fights, and seem to be very compatible people. Until...dun dun dun...about 2 months ago, when I accidentally saw his internet history...tonssss and tonssss of porn sites. I got mad, blah blah blah, he said he found me more attractive, he just did that when he was feeling lazy/I wasn't around. Whatever. I always knew in the back of my mind that he watched that. But it still really bothered me. Today, my curiosity got the best of me, and I checked his history again, only to find that he had gone to Craigslist's personals, looking for women on webcams??? Does that mean he wanted to have video sex with them??? WTF is that about?!!! And he also apparently did this on weekend nights, very late, after we'd be out drinking...and usually after those long nights, he says he's TOO TIRED TO HAVE SEX WITH ME. Just to put this in perspective, I am a slender, attractive young woman, with a nice butt and nice breasts. My boyfriend says constantly how much he loves my body. And not to be an ass hole, but taller, bigger, more attractive guys hit on me all the time. But I love my boyfriend very much. Anyway, the point of this story is that b/c of this Craigslist personals thing and me just dwelling the whole concept of him watching porn, I am SO FURIOUS. For the first time in my life, I feel compelled to cheat on him. I'm a very loyal girlfriend and make it a point to try to not ever look or think about other guys. Have any women who have faced this situation ever had this reaction? My rationale, I guess, is that a) I want to hurt him in retaliation (which I know is awful and i need to control) and b) he has this other sexual outlet of porn, which I can't really get into (I've tried), and I feel like it's only fair that I should have an alternative sexual outlet also. I'm sorry, I know I'm rambling...I'm just looking for someone who understands this situation (basically just boyfriends and porn) and can shed some light on it for me, from your own perspective. I don't really want to talk to my friends about it. Thanks, everyone. I'm having a really tough time with this ( Link to post Share on other sites
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