I am catholic...was raised this way......and now that I am an adult, I go to mass on my own(without my parents dragging me as they did until I was 18). I enjoy going....one thing that is happening lately is I cry almost each time I go. I do not know what happens to me? I just get very emotional. It is an overwhelming feeling. That is the only way I can describe it. I am pretty depressed with my life right now and it seems all sermons are just for me and make so much sense. The songs they sing also make me cry. It is not a sad cry, but a good one? Does anyone else have this issue? It is kind of embarassing.
One more thing...could it be that I feel that God is disappointed with my choices lately? Could it be that I feel guilty for leading a life that God prob is not too happy with? I do not do anyting horrible, but sometimes I put up with things that I should not and I know that I chosse things in life that make me very unhappy and hurt.
I don't mean this to be rude, but maybe you are feeling sorry for yourself? Perhaps you are disappointed in the choices you have made and at the stage your life is in right now and don't know how to change it or follow what you deem God's path for you, so it becomes overwhelming and you cry.
I've seen others cry in church and I remember once or twice when I was trying so hard to believe (before I left the faith) that the sermons and singing made me feel so low and not part of anything that was so important to others, and I felt like an outcast and it overwhelmed me to where I shed a couple of tears of self-pity.
well in the last 5 yrs this has been happening? And it has only been the last 2 that I have not been so happy with my life. So, it could be self pity, but not sure what it was prior to my life chaning recently.
Beth, are we the same person or what? There are so many similarities - I see myself in many of your posts.
I avoid going to church, not only cuz mass is held so darn early in the summer, but because of the emotions that pass thru me. I believe I am feeling sorry for myself, but with good reason. There were many times while I was still married, sitting next to my stranger/husband and our children. People would give us that "oh what a nice looking perfect little family" look and my heart would break knowing it was far from perfect and that I was doing everything I knew how to try and make it work but all I got was neglect.
One mothers day, when my second child was a baby, they gave a flower to all the mom's. My husband had forgotten, and it was probably one of the only occasions I didn't "remind" him of. He felt like crap and I was near tears thru the whole service.
Beth, I know this feeling. You're overwhelmed and cry. You can see something big and meaningful and cry. Something so touching and wonderful, it makes you cry. It's not sadness in the real sense; it's awe towards life and nature. I completely divide it from grief. I am not religious at all, but I understand what you're talking about. Do you happen to be some water astrological sign, like scorpio or cancer, probably pisces?
When you feel that God is speaking to you in some way, always listen to that. God does know our problems and that's good because He does know how to help us. As a Christian I believe very much that God's Holy Spirit does speak to our hearts and that is where the rush of emotion comes from. It's an inner knowledge that God is with us, an assurance that His love is forever, and that He will never take that from us. No one has ever promised us that life will be easy in any way, but God's love does lift us to a higher place. It always will.
A pipe organ produces sound at an inaudible pitch that has an emotional impact on people. Interesting? Churches by their design tend to create an ethereal experience. Couple this with inner emotions that inevitably run deep at certain times in life will produce this profound feeling. Thus all other aspects are drawn into the moment.
I was at a church where the choir was singing How Great Thou Art, and it was a reunion choir from like 25 years earlier, and half the congregation had to go outside and shed their tears, and I was about to ask my dad why ppl were leaving when I saw a tear streaming down his cheek.
He told me after that song is played at alot of funerals, and also the sound of the choir sent everyone back 25 years.
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