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Ok, first off, let me introduce mysekf, my name

is Emanuel, i'm new here, and I suffer from OCD(obsessive

compulsive disorder) This is called the "doubting

disease" I'm always questioning and wondering about

trivial things or about basic things in life

that cause me anxiety. One of my newer doubts, unfortunately,

is my sexuality. I have always been aroused by women, In

my soul, I know I only want to be with a woman,

marry her ect. I only want to have sex with a woman, BUT

out of the blue, my mind is telling me "i could be gay

deep down." I have never had a male sexual experience,

and I don't want one either, but in my distress, I

always feel compelled to test myself due to my

desperate need to be a hundred percent sure, to see

if i'm really gay or not, so now, for example, if i see

Brad Pitt (which all men would probably acknowledge in

general is a good-looking guy) I take it further than

that and wonder if i'm attracted to him ect. Then I purposely

fantasize about him and me to see if i get hard (which

I don't when i'm not touching it) I don't seem to ever

get aroused to erection when I simply force myself to

fantasize about doing stuff with men without touching it, but

I always do when I think about doing stuff with women

without touching it, and lately that has been my

proof i'm straight, BUT just this morning I decided to

test and see if i can get hard and maybe even ejaculate

by actually touching it this time and stroking it while

i was fantasizing about another man, to my dismay I did

get hard and I knew if i continued I would of eventually climaxed.

Now, I have read that whether people would like to admit

it or not that there are truly no 100 percent straight

and 100 percent gay people, that we all follow a

spectrum according to the famous sex researcher Kinsey,

even if its something as lopsided as 95 percent

towards women 5 percent towards men, that most people, the

majority, are bisexuals by ORIENATIONS to some degree, but

either heterosexual or homosexual by PREFERENCE. So,

is it really worth it getting so worked up over that experience I

had? I'm sure straight women get aroused and even masturbate

to women, like when you see in a movie, a girl who is

pretty much straight having no qualms about making out

with a girl and stuff during a threesome scene, so why

is it so taboo for men? My friend is a laid back guy and he says

if hypothetically he ever gets aroused by a man he'd just

be like "hey, i guess guys can make me hard sometimes, go figure,

and kinda laughed and said "oh well, i still like

women though" and shrugged it off and that was that. I wish

I could be that laid back about things, but I tend to freak out.

Basically, all I'm asking for is if anyone else has

gone through what I have, and if its normal for a

straight man to be sexually aroused by another man, either

by touching it or not(it refering to the penis of course)

but not choose to want to be that way and be

perfectly content in all that knowledge. thank you.

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Well, Not Sure If This Helps But I Enjoy Learning About My Partner. I Like To Be Able To Know That I Can Tell What She Might Like Before She Tells Me. For Example - Some Women Have A Certain Visual Perference For How A Man Looks, Maybe How His Package Looks, And I Have No Problem Saying Stuff To My Gurlfriend. In Fact, A Long Time Ago When We Were Discovering Our Likes And Dislikes I Would Download A Short Vid And See If She Thought The Same Way. We Have Always Tried Toexpand What Sexuklaity Means To Us -because Sexuality Takes A Lifetime To Learn, Discover And Enjoy. Let Me Give U An Example - Once I Saw A Vid Of A Guy And A Woman Having Intercourse, And I Thought If I Was A Woman The Guys Penis, Would Be Something Along The Lines Of What I Would Like - So, I Showed Her Without Saying Anything To Hear Her Reaction - There Is Something Truly Hot And Exciting About Being With Someone When The Open Up To You. So, For Me, I Have No Probs With The Male Body But What Excites Me Is My Gfs Reaction. Anyhooo, I Showed It To Her And She Said....gawd All These Things Are Just Male Cock Movies...and I Felt Kinda Goofy. So, I Asked Her Want She Would Find Exciting - And I Never Would Have Guessed But Was Happy She Trusted Me And Showed Me. And That Was Special And Kewl. Never Been With Someone That Is So Fearless As She Is. And I Honestly Believe I Would Do Anything With Her

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