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subiewifi91

So let me start off by saying i fell in love with my best friend back in may of 2012. She had just given birth to a daughter but the father was not in the childs life. We have gone through things in this relationship that most people wouldn't deal with in such a short amount of time but have always found a way to make it back to each other and be happy.

 

Well back in march we had a terrible fight. The cops were called and it just got completely out of hand. I told her i was gonna move out and she repeatedly begged me to stay and that she was sorry for calling them. About two weeks later i moved out. As a single male in san diego i was having a good time going out and seeing other people. Now i knew she wasnt gonna wait on me forever. During this time i would still occasionally see her. Like maybe a total of 5 times between march and may. Well around May 23 she invited me over for dinner. We got to talking about something but she was acting really shady. She was telling me she loved me and missed me and not to be mad at her. I ended up cancelling the dinner and leaving. I was seeing someone else at the time but deep down i know im in love with her. Well like every other time we have broken up she immediatley brings back everyone in her life who was a problem during our relationship. Well one of the guys she had brought back she started talking too and the day after that fight at her house she flew up to washington with her daughter to visit him. She was up there for 9 days. I was trying to contact her the whole time but she was just ignoring me. When she got back she was a royal c*** to me and basically wanted nothing to do with me saying she was moving on. She just kept bringing up the new girl i was seeing. She was even so mad at me that she felt it necessary to inform me that she slept with him on the first night there. Now my mind works in terrible ways and the way im thinking about it i just imagine they were having this 9-day f*** fest where she didnt even leave the bedroom.

 

Well now she wants us back together and wants our family to work and honestly its what i want too because i just don't get the feelings i get with her with anyone else. I know she serious about it too because shes even going to war with her family over me as they arent happy shes with me again.

 

The reason im on this site is because last night we were having sex and she decided to do something that she had never done before with me. The first thing i thought was she is doing something she started doing with another man, and it honestly had me sick to my stomach. I asked her if she had just really tried something with me that she learned with another man and she said swore up and down that it wasnt the case that she hadt seen it in a porno but i dont buy that. What do i do? i know i love her. I know i want to be with her. It just kills me knowing another person has had her in that way and i dont know how to get it out of my head.

 

Sorry for the long post

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Philosoraptor

What in the world makes you believe this relationship could ever work?

 

Between the lack of trust and honesty, and the overwhelming amount of emotional issues you'd just continue along this seemingly never ending cycle.

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subiewifi91

Idk what makes me think this will work besides the fact that i know im happiest when im with her. I love her. Sometimes it just feels as if it isnt enough though

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Idk what makes me think this will work besides the fact that i know im happiest when im with her. I love her. Sometimes it just feels as if it isnt enough though

Happiest when you were sick to your stomach? Or during all the fights?

 

You can't cherrypick and ignore the bad. Take a step back and ask yourself what you would tell your best friend if he told you all of this stuff.

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subiewifi91

Ugh. When you say it like that i would probably slap the stupid off of my friend if he told me these things. But i also don't know what exactly my best friend feels. I havent been a saint either and ive been with other women besides her but this is the first known time that she has been with someone else and its killing me. Am i just being selfish? Because i know i was doing the same things if not worse with other people and she doesnt seem to be taking it as hard as me

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The more you say the less healthy this situation looks. I feel pity for all parties involved in this, especially the child since he or she is seeing and hearing all of this.

 

You'd be right to slap the stupid off of your friend, and you need to do so with yourself. How you feel is trapping you where you are instead of logically seeing how unhappy you have been and how insecure this relationship is.

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