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Old 10th December 2015, 7:10 AM   #61
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I had to sit next to you today for the photos, it wasn't as bad as I was expecting as I kept myself distracted. I noticed in the fun photo you decided to stand in front of me.

When we went to go have drinks after, I was asked to invite J, the girl I'm seeing as a couple of friends wanted to meet her. So I invited her, when she was here I noticed that you kept glancing over at us and trying to distract yourself. I finally saw for myself that you were jealous, like you were when I got with J the first time.

Now I've seen it, I finally can prove that I was right, you did like me the whole time. So S, you screwed yourself over when you rejected me and lied to me about how you considered me a "close friend."

You're too late, I really like J and I want to keep seeing her.
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Old 10th December 2015, 9:59 AM   #62
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You confuse me, just what on earth is it that you want from me?, your contacting me now trying to be close as if nothing has happened, we aren't together, I don't want to talk things through, you'd only have me taking the blame for the things that you have done, and say I was to take on board your idea of "we can be together but not live together" what happens when I disagree with your boundaries for the "new" relationship again?, are you going to flip out, start screeching at me and push me away?, that's what happened last time and that was the final push that it took to walk away from you.

Don't get me wrong, I'm not angry at you, I can't say I'm not upset though, I'm destroyed, I'm washed out, just emotionally and physically exhausted, I can't agree to what it is that you want, your not willing to compromise, we can't go forward from here.
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Old 11th December 2015, 1:37 AM   #63
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You say that you “will never forget” me in your life. And that is supposed to be some kind of comfort to me, while you are raising some other man’s family?

In point of fact, forgetting me is exactly what I would like you to do. Because I am going to forget you. It may not happen today, or tomorrow, but I am going to erase you. I honestly wish I had never met you in the first place. I have disposed of all your photos, everything you ever gave me, everything you ever wrote me. The Thai silks and the Thai hand candle will all go to someone else. I have burned the piece of paper on which you wrote “ran khun ka” and the little passport photo of you that used to be on my computer monitor.

If I live to be 120 years old, my heart will never process how you could lie to and betray me so easily. And so I will erase you. Don’t offer me your comfort that you will never forget me. Instead, forget me completely. Put every thing, and thought, and memory, of me into a big pile in the middle of the yard and burn it black.

I will consider myself a living Buddha when I reach that day that I no longer have any memory of who you are or having tied up my life with you.
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Old 11th December 2015, 7:26 PM   #64
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Here I am again, sitting alone on a Friday night, resisting the urge to send you a message of how much I love you and miss you but you wouldn't care. You would just say sorry and act like I was nothing.

I miss spending every weekend with you, I miss staying up till 4 in the morning with you in my arms. All of these memories are now becoming fantasies, the more time I spend away from you, the more I crave you.

Why couldn't you have tried to make things work with me? Why? You left me so broken and hurt but all I want is to have you back, to love you again.

I miss you and love you so much Cass
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Old 11th December 2015, 8:29 PM   #65
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I miss you. You've hurt me so much but I can't stop loving you. I don't know when my heart and my mind will reconcile and I'll finally move on from you but until then, know that you are special to me.

I wish you could have been the one..but it seems like the odds were stacked against us from the beginning.

All I can think about lately is the good memories we had. There were so many moments when we were together that I would look into your eyes and tears would well up in mine. I loved you so much it would bring tears. I loved taking care of you. I loved loving you...and I never stopped.

(Sigh) This is so hard.
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Old 12th December 2015, 2:52 AM   #66
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Yawn. Don't even bother.

Listen, a long time ago I wanted you back. I don't anymore. I miss what I had with you but it would never be the same at this point. I adored you. You were the apple of my eye. I could never look at you that way again. I wish I could say that bothers me but it really doesnt--I'm long past caring.

Every few months or whatever you seem to get me stuck in your head and reach out to me. Well you're just going to have to live with that. Good luck
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Old 13th December 2015, 12:31 PM   #67
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Hi S,

I'm feeling a bit vulnerable today, not sure why.

I noticed you glancing at me last night, I was with J as you know. It could have been you, you had 2 months S.

I'm getting more and more attracted to J by the day, and my feelings for you are slipping away day by day.
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Old 13th December 2015, 8:06 PM   #68
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I don't want to be with you, your lucky I have been so calm and collected about everything, sometimes you send me nice messages and come across apologetic, but tonight you send me messages attempting to make me feel guilt for things I should feel no guilt for, your really trying to warp my sense of reality on how things played out, shame on you.

I love you but your too emotionally and mentally unstable to maintain a healthy relationship with, you switch back and forth and it makes me question everything, a few weeks a go we had a really nice run of days together then you pull away from me suddenly, I feel upset and out of nowhere you distance yourself from me, I get upset and then you tell me i forced it, I was pushy, you weren't ready for such a nice set of days together, too soon, then tell me I was only after sex, you pull stupid stunt's like this and expect all to be well and forgiven when you feel alright again, you have no idea what damage hearing all that does to me.

My patience has ran out, as a band I used to listen to a lot used to sing "you had nine lives and one by one you chewed em up, your final coffin nail's been driven far too much" basically, your our of second chances, you can't mess someone round to the extent that you have and still expect the world.
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Old 13th December 2015, 8:52 PM   #69
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I got your email.

First of all, what the hell will meeting face to face do? So you can tell me you "don't feel the same way" in person, and effectively ruin my holiday? I shouldn't believe anything that comes out of your mouth. You are constantly changing your mind about things.

You really have some nerve. I know that you think offering friendship is just you being a "good person", and I'm the one being difficult for ignoring you, and not accepting it. I'm sorry for not being your gay best friend, who will be there for you like I was when we were together. You don't want me? You don't get me at all. You don't get the convenient parts of me that you like, and ignore the rest. You have me believing I'm sh*t, and yet you insist on reaching out to me every few months.

You also have a lot of nerve telling me that you have a lot of places to turn, and aren't just turning to me because you have nowhere else to go. Who are you anyway? You miss talking to me? All of the dude's your probably f*cking have ears. Talk to them. You can never stop talking anyway. They probably feel like cutting their ears off after listening to you yammer on for so long about nothing. If you have guys crawling all over you, go have them be your friend? Oh, they probably only want to f*ck you before kicking your @ss to the curb. I don't feel sorry for you at all. I don't know why you feel like you can treat me this way, and the worst part is you have no idea that it's hurting me.

Also F*CK YOU for saying that you don't regret either person after me. I don't mind if you don't regret them. but why include that in your email? Just to shove it in my face? Who was the email about? Your feelings about me, or updating me on your dating life, and how you dated two screwballs?

I don't believe you at all when you say I still mean something to you.
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Old 14th December 2015, 12:30 AM   #70
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My heart is destroyed. My life is pale mimicry without you in it.

How you could marry someone else within such a short time, I will never process in my heart. Towards the end you must have really hated my for the pain I caused you.

The ghost of you in my life haunts me every minute of the day. The absence of any knowledge of where you are, what you are doing, and how you are feeling is a gigantic desert wasteland in my chest.

I'm not sure I can climb out of this hole.
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Old 14th December 2015, 7:59 PM   #71
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I'm glad I resisted temptation, I was very close to replying to your stream of messages last night, I was very upset about how you was portraying me and spinning situations, but this is what you do, your the master of spin, even though I'm upset and have every right to be, you somehow turn it around so your upset and I'm the one who should be apologising, I don't know how you do it, it's messed up how much that's worked out for you in our relationship, you left me scratching my head for days wondering why I had apologised for something you said or did.

You are ruthless and over the top, watching those message's flood in, it reminded me of times I just told you to please stop because it's not like that or I'm not like that, but you wouldn't, you'd keep on going knowing you was hurting me, and then, you wouldn't talk to me for days on end, you'd do your damage and leave, and I honestly don't remember a time you ever reached out to genuinely apologise, it's like you have no ability to feel remorse.

I fought for you for a long time, even when I wasn't at fault and you was the one who had wronged, I had to fight because you never did, even now you don't fight for me, your reaching out to fight against me, and now your frustrated because your losing the grip you had on me, and let me tell you, I won't be controlled anymore, I don't deserve the abuse I've had off you.

I wish you'd get help, your clearly hysterical looking at you now from the outside, you have deep rooted issues, I've never known someone to cause so many problems for herself and worst of all, it gets dumped on everyone else, but it's hard to help you, your fragile ego is critical of everything, be it suggestions or criticism, you take it too heart every time, I can't even joke around to cheer you up because that will be taken the wrong way and held against me as well.

I tried my hardest to please you, even at the cost of my own happiness but nothing was good enough for you, I'd have to wonder who could be enough for you because I'm definitely the best of a bad bunch, I gave you chance after chance after chance, I went through hell fighting my better judgement, I lost my self worth, but this time I've truly had enough, I'm washed out and I need to rest, ans hopefully now that I've cut off every avenue of contact I can do just that.
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Old 16th December 2015, 6:30 AM   #72
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I am so sorry.

I am so sorry, I misunderstood my priorities in life.

I would give anything to go back.

You, and a family, and a future. I was distracted by everything else in the world.

God help me. I am a fool. My God, comfort me in my hour of need.
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Old 16th December 2015, 8:14 AM   #73
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I feel depressed today, I just don't sleep too well these days, I was dreaming of you from the beginning of the relationship, you weren't perfect by any stretch of the imagination, the situation was up side down but back then you genuinely wanted to spend time with me, you fought for the relationship through the bad times, you didn't want to be away from me and you showed me that you loved me through your actions, you showed me that you cared through your actions.

What happened?, somewhere down the line I feel like I got shelved, I became less and less of a priority, suddenly the relationship came to a stand still, you weren't around anymore, you stopped talking to me, you stopped replying to my messages when you weren't around, suddenly I didn't matter anymore, no matter what went on in my life, whether I needed your helping hand, or just someone to talk and open up to, you wouldn't reach out.

Thinking back on this, I can't help but cry, and I'm not ashamed to come out and say that, there is nothing more painful to me than the feeling of being taken for granted, forgotten and not cared about, discarded like garbage.
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Old 16th December 2015, 2:09 PM   #74
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Wow. This looks like a good thread for me to live in. Posted my woes for the first time today about writing a text to a guy I wrote saying I have to pull away here. I know my limits of what I can and can't tolerate. But geez I want to write already. I can't. I won't. And he won't write back I know it. I'm sad and tempted.
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Old 16th December 2015, 2:10 PM   #75
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I feel depressed today, I just don't sleep too well these days, I was dreaming of you from the beginning of the relationship, you weren't perfect by any stretch of the imagination, the situation was up side down but back then you genuinely wanted to spend time with me, you fought for the relationship through the bad times, you didn't want to be away from me and you showed me that you loved me through your actions, you showed me that you cared through your actions.

What happened?, somewhere down the line I feel like I got shelved, I became less and less of a priority, suddenly the relationship came to a stand still, you weren't around anymore, you stopped talking to me, you stopped replying to my messages when you weren't around, suddenly I didn't matter anymore, no matter what went on in my life, whether I needed your helping hand, or just someone to talk and open up to, you wouldn't reach out.

Thinking back on this, I can't help but cry, and I'm not ashamed to come out and say that, there is nothing more painful to me than the feeling of being taken for granted, forgotten and not cared about, discarded like garbage.

Omg thanks for this. It sounds like something I could have written.
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