Here's the background on my situation. I was with my ex for 4 months and things got REALLY serious. Neither of us planned this...it just happened, which made it that much more special. Before we dated, we would text and talk on the phone everyday for a month straight. So we really got to know each other pretty well. WE could talk to eachother about anything and everything. She told me how she's never met a guy like me and how she rarely gives any guy the time of day. Once we finally made it official things just kept getting better and better in our relationship. We both fell in love and everything was perfect. She would always tell me she loves me and that I'm what she wants and I'm exactly what she wants in a guy and how happy she was that we were together. Our connection was very deep and romantic/intimate. Words can't even describe how happy we both were. It seriously was the PERFECT relationship. Neither of us had any doubts whatsoever. We were very open and vocal about how we felt about the relationship. She told me she wanted to marry me and how she wanted to spend the rest of her life with me. We only dated for a total of 4 months before she texted me and said, "we need to talk." She broke up with me an the end of February because she didn't feel the same way anymore. Plus she was graduating from school and wanted to enjoy her senior year and the summer.
I was devastated when she broke up with me. I felt shattered and lost. My heart has never hurt that bad ever. We still talked after the break. She told me that I shouldn't worry about us because she said we'd get back together once college starts in the fall. I asked her, "are you 100% positive?" She replied, "150%."
A month later I find out she has a new boyfriend. I was furious, jealous and sick to my stomach because I wasn't even close to being over her and she already had a new boyfriend. Are you serious?!?!?! I know me and her were only together for a solid 4 months but it was just as serious as a 2 year relationship, so for me it was so hard to get over her. I just couldn't accept the fact that she was already over me. Anyway we did talk while she dated this guy, but we ended up just arguing every time we did talk and I would tell her how I missed her and loved her. I know I texted her way too much and kept bringing up the past. That annoyed her that's for sure. I should of just stuck to the NO CONTACT rule.
I thought we could try and just stay friends or something, but I was just using that as an excuse to get closer to her or win her back. And I wanted to hold onto any sort of contact that I had with her. I'd try and get her to hang out with me but she told me that we couldn't hang out because she had a boyfriend and she was scared that if she did see me, that she would do something, like kiss me. That right there gave me a glimmer of hope that she still had some feelings for me. Our relationship was very romantic and we never started off as being just friends before we dated so we don't know how to be JUST friends. Anyway I would constantly text her when she was on my mind. I definitely let my emotions take control of the content we talked about. I ended up just annoying her and she told me there was no benefit for me to be in her life. She said that she was never going to get back together with me...blah blah blah. I told her that I'm sorry for the constant texts and calls and that I'll just talk to her when she's ready to talk again.
So she texted me last week and said, "hey was just thinking about you. hope you're doing well." I replied to her on this past Monday because I didn't want to just respond right away like some pathetic loser. So we've been just small talking but then last night...she sent me a text that said this, "we were saying bye to each other and then he kissed me and I cried. ohmygooddd."
I had no idea what she was talking about. She was like, "sorry. that text wasn't meant to be sent to you." I guess it was supposed to be sent to one of her girly friends. Do you think that was an honest mistake or did she send me that text on purpose knowing I'd get jealous and mad??
My friend Lisa told me that there's no way she "accidentally" sent me that text and that she did it because she has feelings for me still. Do you think there is any truth behind that?
I feel like she was trying to get a reaction out of me. BUT WHY?
I was trying to pretend like I didn't care but I did. To be honest I don't want to know anything that's going on in her personal life as far as other guys go. I wasn't sitting here telling her about anyone in my life.
Then she went on about how she met some guy and that they've been hanging out for 2 weeks and are in love with eachother. I told her I wasn't over her and that I didnt want to know any of this and that it was making me jealous. She said she would never intentionally hurt me, but then she like wouldn't stop talking about this guy. I told her to just stop and respect the fact I don't want to talk to her if she's going to bring up this guy. She was clearly doing it to piss me off and make me jealous. She made one comment where she said how this guy is more perfect than me. That comment really made me feel like ****. Seriously, why the hell would she say something like that? And why is she trying to make me jealous? She knows I'm not over her.
Also this morning, I basically told my ex to stop texting me. I told her there is no point for us to have any kind of contact. I told her to stay the **** out of my life. I know that I can't be friends with someone I still have VERY strong feelings for. If anyone has any advice, please please comment. I need to know that everything will be okay. I honestly feel like I will never find a girl like my ex and when I do that I'm only going to compare her to my ex.